Winter is Coming...

01: Tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now?
We just started chatting and he's really laid back, honest and friendly, is actually interested in what I have to say, caring, and a dirty boy lol...just lush :)

02: What on your body is hurting or bothering you?
Nothing to be honest! Though I'm sat awkward so once I've typed this sentence I'll move so my back doesn't flip out lol.

03: What was your last thought before going to bed last night?
I dunno, I text Kev back and then put my phone back on my book and hit the pillow.

04: What are you listening to?
The News is on in the background.

05: What’s something you’re looking forward to?
Seeing Kev next week! :) And going to Terasa's surprise Birthday Party on Friday, hope she enjoys it!

06: Where do you think your best friend is right now?
At home or at work? Lol I'm not sure!

07: Have you kissed anybody in the last five days?
Just...Last Saturday, so that's 5 days ago right?

08: Favourite song ?At the moment? Maybe 'Oh My Dayum' by Scmoyoho/Daym Drops teehee...makes me laugh just thinking about it <3

09: Kiss on the first date?
Why ever not?

10: Is there one person you want to be with right now?
Yeah Kev!

11: Are you seriously happy with where you are in life?
I am, though I would like a job really.

12: Is there something you would like to say to someone?
Not that I can think of at the moment. Though if I could be bothered I might scream 'Just say what you want to say and stop taking your shit out on me!' lol...

13: What are three things you did today?
Watched some TV, restarted my phone because I wasn't receiving texts, and cooked my tea (wahey lol). What an exciting day.

14: Would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over?
Probably stay at a friends I guess!

15: What is your favourite kind of gum?
I guess Wrigley's Extra! Though I do miss Hubba Bubba Apple Bubblegum hehe.

16: Are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends/ girlfriends?
No not really.

17: What is on your wrists right now?
My left wrist has my Fatboys black band, a plaited leather thong and three black shag bands, two of them thin, one a little thicker that was Kev's, teehee :) also a black and grey book tattoo. My right wrist has a silver bangle that Kelvin got me for my birthday or Christmas one year, a little anchor tied on with black thong stuff, and a red umbrella tattoo.

18: Ever liked someone you thought you didn’t stand a chance with?
Nick Frost? lol. It felt like that alot with Nathan I guess.

19: Does anyone have strong feelings for you?
Yeah Kevyn :) Though I mean a strong feeling isn't necessarily romantic love, so like my mum and my friends hopefully do too! Haha :3

20: Are you slowly drifting away from someone?
Um I'm not really sure?

21: Have you ever wasted your time on someone?
Not really. I don't really feel like living is a waste of time. It might not be what you expected at the beginning from them, but it's all life experience right? lol XD

22: Can you do the alphabet in sign language?
No...I don't even know one letter!

23: How have you felt today?
Lazy. I'm bored of being home!

24: You receive £60 without any reason, what do you spend it on?
Train tickets and food probably lol.

25: What is wrong with you right now?
Not in Newport? lol. Nothing's wrong at the moment thanks!

26: Is there anyone you’re really disappointed in?
Not particularly. I wish my exes would have been more grown up.

27: Would you rather have starbucks or jamba juice right now?
Do Starbucks do Hot Chocolate?

28: Why aren’t you in ‘love’ with your last ex anymore?
Because he put me on the shelf when my Grandma had just died so that he could go and fuck some other girl. I don't think you'd love that person again would you?

29: How late did you stay up last night and why?
Umm, around 1am I think, was texting Kev about next week :)

30: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
Had a little comment swap of FB this morning with Apple, last time I saw them both to talk to face to face was last weekend!

31: What were you doing an hour ago?
Cooking my tea :)

32: What are you looking forward to in the next month?
Seeing Deaf Havana, doing a Special FX workshop day, seeing Priscilla Queen of the Dessert, seeing my bubber whenever :) <3

33: Are you wearing jeans right now?
Nope! Slouchin' about.

34: Are you a patient person?
Um, Kind of. I sort of sway between patient and impatient alot. Depends on the situation!

35: Do you think you can last in a relationship for three months?
Yes :)

36: Favourite color?
Red?

37: Did you have a dream last night?
I expect so but I can't remember! :(

38: Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
Wearing my Download sweat pants :) *Damn Americans...they're jogging bottoms lmao*

39: If someone could be cuddling you right now, who would you want it to be?
Kev! :3

40: Do you love anyone who is not related to you?
Yep!

41: If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
If it wasn't Kev then I don't really think I'd want to or need to know.

42: Do you like meeting new people?
I do once I've met them but I dread meeting people for the first time.

43: Are you afraid of falling in love?
No, you don't know what you could miss if you pass up the opportunity!

45: Has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
Lots of people actually, which is nice :) It was cute, the day I first met Kevyn he met me at the train station, and when we were leaving and walking to town he said 'you have amazing eyes' and said how I'd looked at him and it shocked him hehe, so lush :) <3

46: Have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough?
I used to, but now I only really feel that way in a job or art sense. I don't ever feel not good enough for 'people' anymore.

Valentine's Kiss

1. Are looks important in a relationship?
I think they are in a way, but I also think that people's personalities make you fall for their looks, so you become attracted to people with similar features etc? If that makes sense?

2. Are relationships ever worth it?
Always.

3. Are you a virgin?
Nope.

4. Are you in a relationship?
YES!

5. Are you in love?
I guess I should learn my lesson and say too early to tell lol.

6. Are you single this year?
Nope!

7. Can you commit to one person?
Of course.

8. When you are dating someone do you believe in going on "breaks"?
No. That was my entire relationship with Lee and No.

9. Describe your perfect mate.
Someone who can make me laugh, and indulge my interests, hold conversations and travel with me...It's hard to decide!

10. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Lust at first sight.

11. Do you ever want to get married?
Maybe, not sure I'd want the whole huge dress in a church kind of thing!

12. Do you forgive betrayal?
I have done, but I won't anymore.

13. Do you get jealous easily?
Yes. It's in my nature lol.

14. Do you have a crush on anyone?
Um, yes? But shall we mention Nick Frost here? hehe :3

15. Do you have any piercings?
Yes, I have my right nostril, a Madonna, a VCH, and both lobes stretched to 14mm.

16. Do you have any tattoos?
Yes I have a Taurus symbol on the back of my neck, a pumpkin with vines and Tiggy's name on my right ankle, a book with pages flying out on my left wrist, a red umbrella on my right wrist, and lyrics with a paintbrush on the inside of my upper right arm.

17. Do you like kissing in public?
Small kisses, not snogging. I think that's awful.

20. Do you shower every day?
If I had some routine to my life then yes, but atm I'm a lazy bum lol.

21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
Yes! :)

22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Hopefully!

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
Yes.

24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
No idea, I can't imagine it though!

25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?
Yes :)

26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
Pfft, yes.

27. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?
I used to write a lot of poems surrounding or about Lee.

28. Have you ever been cheated on?
Yesssss.

29. Have you ever cheated on someone?
Nope.

30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?
Not really. Only if I had millions and some Zydrate. And even then it would be really petty little things I imagine. Nothing major.

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?
Of course.

32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?
Yep, both ways.

33. Have you ever had sex with a man?
Yep.

34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?
Nope.

35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
Yes of course!

36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?
Don't know really. Not my current friends anyway just to be clear lol

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
Kind of.

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
I've had dreams about people I'd never expect to...but not really 'liked'.

39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
Nick Frost.

40. How many people have you ever hooked up with?
Depends how you mean? Sex with 4, 'encounters' with 7.

41. Have you had sex so far this year?
Yessssss.

42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?
I've got alot better at that, I can control my hands a little better now lol.

43. How long was your longest relationship?
In actual chronological time I'm not so sure. Maybe a year or two? I was Lee's property for 7 years but it was always on and off!

44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?
Uh 3 if we count Mr.Current :3 <3

45. How many people did you kiss in 2012?
3

46. How many times did you have sex last year?
I dunno, I can't keep count like that! 0_o

47. How old are you?
23

48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
I don't know, tell them to go for it if they don't want me?

49. What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex?
I think it depends on their maturity but I know from my group of friends we were all ready around 14-15 and that was fine. I know personally I felt it was right and not pushed or late-coming so yeah?

50. If your first true love knocked on your door with an apology and presents, would you accept?
Depends if it was just an apology, if it was I'd accept, if it was to get me back or something then I'd hopefully tell him where to shove it? I'm not really sure.

51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?
I don't know.

52. Do you think people who have dated can stay friends?
It just doesn't work. I think it can if you have the right personalities, and I'd go as far as saying it's horoscope-related aswell...but I just don't think I could do it. It's too complicated, it's too painful.

53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
Not mad as such, but he's taking his inner turmoil out on me that's for sure!

54. Is there someone you will never forget?
Of course. Lee is ingrained in my brain lol.

55. Would you break up with someone your parents didn't approve of?
I doubt it. To be honest my mum would let me make my own mistakes.

56. State 8 facts about your body;
Christ...um...
- There is a little dark blob on one of my irises.
- I have a large gut lol.
- I have a funny bent toe on each foot.
- I can roll my long tongue.
- I have dodgy knees and have popped left or right 6 times.
- There is a piece of metal through my junk lol.
- I break out in spots if I start eating healthily.
- I have permanently rosey cheeks.

57. Things you want to say to an ex;
I don't really know what I'd say to be honest.

58. What are five ways to win your heart?
Laughter, Food, Interesting Conversations, Attention, Company.
That's really hard actually lol.

59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?
The current age gap is 10 years and about 4 months.

61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?
Depends how you meet them I guess. I would imagine the face would be the first thing anyway. Because that's how you identify people!

62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?
Haaaaaa, well I do rather appreciate having an orgasm in someone's face lmao!

63. What is your definition of “having sex”?
Personally I think having sex is literally penis in vagina. But to be honest I guess foreplay is as big or bigger than the 'main event' so I suppose that's kind of 'having sex'? Do lesbians just count all foreplay as sex? I've always wondered that lol.

64. What is your definition of cheating?
Anything happening with another person. Whether that's fooling around or down to flirty texting. Not happening.

65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?
ummm...cuddle, kiss, fondle, give oral, receive oral, get fucked *nods*

66. What is your favourite roleplay?
I don't do roleplay thanks. What is the use.

67. What is your idea of the perfect date?
I don't know, movies and food, whether that's out to the cinema and a meal or whether that's a take away and the tv :) it's all good!

68. What is your sexual orientation?
Straight.

69. What turns you off?
Egos.

70. What turns you on?
Touch.

71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?
I can't even think of one to be fair 0_o but I doubt I'd share it that easily anyway lol.

72. What words do you like to hear during sex?
hmm...hearing 'oh my god' is quite good lol...I don't know, being vocal is fine whatever lol.

73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?
Buy me something awesome <3 lol.

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?
I don't know...I like big guys so that helps straight away.

75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?
Not relationship wise a group of people in work bought me a light-up skull because my redundancy wasn't going to be very much, so that was really sweet :)

76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?
I couldn't say really? :\ Not sure!

77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?
I think it depends on the people to be honest. I think too much of a gap and it's harder to understand...but people have different levels of maturity and compatibility so...yeah, it just depends on the people!

78. Do gay, lesbians, bisexuals or transgender people bother you?
In general we are all the same so no of course not, I have never had a problem with people's sexuality...the only time they bother me is when they start on their tirade about how they hate us 'vanilla' straight people.

79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?
I get jealous of little life experiences.

80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
Christ I don't know. Probably my mum?

81. Who are five people you find attractive?
Nick Frost. I can't be bothered to go into anyone else sorry.

82. Who is the last person you hugged?
Kev :)

83. Who was your first kiss with?
David *shudders*

84. Why did your last relationship fail?
He was a twat.

85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?
Yesssss, I have and am lol.

2012 in a Nutshell

What did you do in 2012 that you’d never done before?
Well. I lost my job, I travelled for hours to meet someone from the internet, I stayed RIP at Download, I lost someone extremely close to me, I turned 23 (lol)...

Did you keep your New Years’ Resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I can't say I ever make New Year's Resolutions. But I'm sure I'd break them!

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Nope!

Did anyone close to you die?
Yes, my Grandma.

What countries did you visit?
Only England and Wales.

What would you like to have in 2013 that you lacked in 2012?
A lovely boyfriend, a job where I'm appreciated, more gigs and shows under my belt?

What date from 2012 will remain etched upon your memory?
A good few! Jan 10th I was told I was losing my job, April 13th I had my VCH, April 19th my Grandma died, 1st June I met Ben, December 6th we finished at work...there's more but y'know...

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Um, I completed an NVQ3 in Administration.

What was your biggest failure?
Can't particularly think of any failures.

Did you suffer illness or injury?
I had the flu and a couple of horrible colds, that's about it.

What was the best thing you bought?
Aww I have no idea! I buy so much! Probably train tickets.

Whose behaviour merited celebration?
I don't know really, my friends have been good to me as they always are, couldn't fault them <3

Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
Nathan was a bit of a prick in the end wasn't he.

Where did most of your money go?
Travelling and gigs I would imagine!!

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Alot of the gigs I went to were exciting for me, like Deaf Havana and The Dangerous Summer on the same tour, and I saw The Used the day before! I was also really excited for The Lion King, though it was bittersweet that my Grandma didn't get to see it.

What song/album will always remind you of 2012?
I think Deaf Havana and The Dangerous Summer will remind me of 2012 most, I listened to those two bands constantly while travelling last year so they'll always remind me of that!

Compared to this time last year, are you:
1. Happier or sadder? Probably about the same? I can't remember!
2. Thinner or fatter? I'd imagine a little fatter lol.
3. Richer or poorer? Technically I'm richer but I'm poorer in the sense that I have no more money coming in now until I get myself a job!

What do you wish you’d done more of?
I don't know really, I think I handled such a shit year well! Maybe more motivation to find a job before they got rid of us.

What do you wish you’d done less of?
Again I did all I could last year!

How will you be spending/did you spend Christmas?
I spent Christmas with my mum and Kelvin, it was our first Christmas without my Grandma so it was strange, but we had a nice relaxed time and we enjoyed it :)

Who did you spend the most time on the phone with?
Ben, we chat every day.

Did you fall in love in 2012?
Not really. It was too complicated with Nathan to know if I was in love and Ben's more of a brother.

How many one night stands in this last year?
1...ish.

What was your favourite TV programme?
Supernatural!! Ben introduced me to it and now I'm in love <3

Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
No I don't hate people, my respect is gone for a few people but that's it.

What was the best book(s) you read?
Hmm, I don't really know! Hard to remember when I read books! I read The Hunger Games which was really addictive.

What was your greatest musical discovery?
I'm not sure! Search The City maybe? Not sure when I started listening to My Favourite Highway...Probably James Arthur actually! Do love his stuff!

What did you want and get?
More gigs and travelling, a VCH piercing, and more tattoos.

What did you want and not get?
A boyfriend? lol...I don't know...more time with Tigs and my Grandma?

Did you regret anything in 2012?
I never regret things...although I do almost regret not getting with Lee when we met up that one time. I didn't want to cheat on Nathan, but he turned out to be cheating on me so y'know! Could be ending the year alot differently!

What were your favourite films of this year?
Oh my, what was out this year? Breaking Dawn Pt 2, The Hobbit...Prometheus was good too.

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I was 23, I went to see Pirates! at the cinema with people from work, can't remember what me and fatboys did! Probably our usual nights in watching movies and eating :) <3

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Keeping my job and my Grandma still being alive.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2012?
Comfort. I haven't really had a 'style' again this year. Which is sad isn't it.

What kept you sane?
My friends <3

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Nick Frost of course!

What political issue stirred you the most?
I don't really know. Immigration usually annoys the hell out of me.

Who did you miss?
My Grandma, Tigs, sometimes Lee.

Who was the best new person you met?
Ben was the only person I met really! But he's great so it's all good.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012.
I guess I know now that you just have to take what you've been dealt and do the best you can with it.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year?
'Cause I'm not a pessimist, but sometimes hope is missed or missing.
Anemophobia - Deaf Havana

In 2012;

I gained: A new friend, metal, ink and qualifications.

I lost: My Grandma, my man, my job.

I stopped: Being nervous of travelling alone.

I started: Travelling, growing up.

I was hugely satisfied by: Travelling, growing up, friends.

And frustrated by: Life throwing shitty curve-balls.

I am so embarrassed that I: Trusted Nathan?

Once again, I: Saw favourite bands, felt alone, spent alot on impulse buying.

Once again, I did not: Fall in love? lol I don't know...

The biggest physical difference between me last December and this December is: A little heavier, and more body mods, my hair is a bit different too!

The biggest psychological difference between me last December and this December is: Needing to grow up fast. Not wanting to take any more shit.

I loved spending time: With family and my friends, travelling, listening to good music.

Why did I spend even two minutes: Checking my phone when I have no-one? I still have no idea lmao.

I should have spent more time: Looking for a job I guess lol.

I regret buying: Nothing.

I will never regret buying: Anything!

I watched: Alot of Supernatural!

I didn’t: Do anything productive!

The most relaxing place I went: Pfft, no idea, my own Bed?

Why did I go: There...lol.

The best thing I did for someone else was: Be there I guess.

The best thing I did for myself was: Not dwell on too much.

The best thing someone did for me was: Just keep my company and keep my smiling <3

The one thing I’d like to do again is: I'm not sure. Travel for shows?

Pick three words to describe 2012: challenging, eye-opening, the beginning.

In what way(s) did you grow emotionally? 
I had to be strong losing my Grandma and then Nathan ditching me for someone else. I took it on the chin and had to hold my head high.

In what way(s) did you grow spiritually? 
I had to do alot of growing up this past year.

In what way(s) did you grow physically? 
Wider? XD

In what way(s) did you grow in your relationships with others? 
I feel like the ones I have I'm closer to, even with my besties moving away! I'm not sure how I can feel closer, maybe I just hold everyone dearer now.

What was the most enjoyable part of your work?
Friends!

What was the most challenging part of your work? 
Doing my best when I know the company didn't appreciate me and were getting rid of me!

What was your single biggest time waster in your life this past year? 
Procrastination! I wasted a lot of time on TV I think.

What was the best way you used your time this past year?
Travelling I guess.

Create a phrase or statement that describes 2012 for you:
Bittersweet.

2012 Check List meme

Here's a nice way to round off 2012 and start a fresh with 2013. I'll be adding a longer meme for 2012 as well, but closer to the end of the year...just in case!

Since the Start of 2012

[x] Gotten a new piercing.
[ ] Dyed my hair.
[x] Ended a relationship.
[ ] Started a new relationship.
[x] Been on a long car/bus journey.
[x] Passed an exam.
[x] Met someone people who are now an important part of my life.
[x] Cried on someone's shoulder.
[ ] Had a massive fight with a boy/girl.
[ ] Received flowers.
[ ] Had a Valentine.
[x] Written a letter using pen & paper.
[ ] Gone to see a therapist.
[ ] Been prescribed medication by a doctor.
[x] Read a really good book.
[x] Gone to the zoo.
[x] Spent too much money on unnecessary things.
[x] Travelled by train.
[x] Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
[ ] Spent the day out in the sun getting a tan.
[ ] Slammed a door out of frustration.
[ ] Had an anxiety attack.
[ ] Babysat for a friend's child.
[x] Had a BBQ.
[ ] Gone to the fair.
[ ] Gone bowling.
[x] Seen a film at the cinema in 3D.
[x] Gone on a date. 
[x] Been the only sober one on a night out.
[x] Helped someone home after they had been drinking.
[ ] Stayed up all night.
[x] Talked on the phone for over two hours.
[x] Supported someone who'd received bad news.
[ ] Watched some kind of live sporting event.
[ ] Read an entire book in one day.
[x] Bought a DVD the day it was released.
[ ] Eaten McDonald's more than four times in a single week.
[ ] Cried as a result of exam stress.
[x] Met some incredible new people.
[x] Gone to great parties.
[ ] Fallen backwards off a chair.
[ ] Broken my glasses.
[ ] Worn a watch for the first time in years.
[x] Cried over someone in my past.
[x] Spent hours aimlessly browsing the internet.
[x] Thrown up.
[x] Cried over a film.
[ ] Gone out of my way to avoid an ex-boy/girlfriend.
[ ] Fought with someone in public.
[ ] Been in a relationship for a year or longer.
[x] Cried in front of someone I adore.
[ ] Lost one of my closest friends.